In sticking with my theme of anxiety…I want to explore how trust, or lack there of trust, really affects my anxiety! So, let us begin by looking at the definition of “trust”.
Trust: (noun) reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing.
In my walk of the Christian life, trust has also been something I have struggled with from time to time. In fact, when I was 20, I directed a retreat and I got to choose my own theme for the weekend. In prayer, very quickly, the theme, “No Doubt”, came to me. I choose a song for the weekend by a Christian band called Petra, also called, “No Doubt”. (It is still one of my go to songs today when I am struggling!) My theme revolved around the story of Doubting Thomas and his doubt of the resurrected Jesus. I had a beautiful banner made that had Jesus and Thomas embracing with the words: “My Lord and My God!” I have always thought Thomas got the raw end of the stick. One time he expressed that he needed to see Jesus, and he was given the nickname of Doubting Thomas for the rest of eternity. His words of “My Lord and My God!” have become a beautiful prayer that the Church still prays today. Thomas had great faith in the Lord and in that weak moment of doubt I am sure he learned a lot.
